Then I found an abusive husband at the age of 18 still 130 pounds. I figured out that because these traumas have happened in my life that I feel safer to be obese, invisible and with low self confidence.
I am working with my therapist to try and get these traumas healed so I no longer have those thoughts in my head telling me to eat for fear of being hurt again. I am currently 213 pounds and am going to try again to lose the weight.
As you see on my half marathon photo to your right of the screen I was looking good and healthy before I let myself go for a year and a half. I am planning on doing a half marathon in September 2012. I will start training again as I have done before but the new hope is that I have my therapist to walk the journey and help me when I get scared or fall off track or lose motivation.